Heart Strings

Tears. Crying. Sobbing. Grieving. Hurt. Pain.

What exactly is that thing that happens that causes our heart to make a direct connection to what’s behind our nose and eyes, that causes that reaction of water and mucus to flow from our face.

It took me quite a few (at least a year) to cry in a therapy session, so I know a thing or two about stifling feelings I’m sure you do too. It wasn’t until recently my mom echoed her voice loud enough so I wouldn’t hear my own critiques I was giving myself. When I told her, “I don’t feel like I should be crying right now about this, this is something not worth my tears” she quickly asked me questions that wouldn’t allow me to judge myself in that moment. She told me something that will always allow me to feel okay for expressing an emotion that is equivalent to laughing, cheering, shouting, being excited.

Now, to be very quite honest, even with that thought, I still struggle at times. There’s this air of guilt that I battle with when it comes to crying, but because I KNOW it’s needed, when a song comes on that allows me to cry, I let it!! And because it’s more than likely overdue, I’m going to cry a lot. If I can’t let it out at that exact moment (really right now at the dentist office), I now know what song to go play to let these emotions freely escape my body when I’m in a space to do so.

The album that is currently allowing me to access these emotions specifically crying is Atavista - Childish Gambino. If you’re a music/sound person, or a word/lyric/story person, you too can let it out.